Just a few weeks left until summer break. That means, just a few more weeks until 8th grade, middle school, is over. This whole “middle school” thing has been somewhat of a turbulent nightmare, full of rapid changes and losses. But in all of this, there has been a silver lining.
Back in 2022, I started a blog with a hope to catalog my feelings and excitement through the ups and downs of middle school. For a while, it worked. After a while, life got really complicated and I stopped posting, because I didn’t have anything good to say anymore.
I just want to thank God for pulling me out of the downward spiral. Sure, in the moment those experiences weren’t ideal, but looking back now, they shaped me to be who I am now.
Over two years ago, just two days before the first day of sixth grade, I wrote this:
I can’t believe my first day of middle school is Monday! All of the excitement and stress has built up to this point. I have heard a lot of different things about the DA. I know for a fact that schoolwork will be difficult. In the first few weeks of school, stuff changes around A LOT. While I really want good grades, I think this new school experience could be fun! I can’t wait to meet all of my classmates! Let me know if you are excited for school. If you’re worried about school, just know that as long as you put in your best effort and your teachers see you trying, you are learning and you are an amazing student.
Soon, posts faded into:
Hi, I’m here but I feel sad because my friends left. I need a while to recuperate.
Of course, there was so much going on in my life that I didn’t post, that it felt like my blog was a facade. I couldn’t be real because I was dealing with so much stuff I couldn’t talk to anybody about. I let my anxiety and depression drive my life. I had to stop. So, for about I year, I disappeared.
But this post isn’t supposed to be a downer. I’ve become a better friend through this experience. I’ve learned how to love people unconditionally and I’ve learned how to forgive. I’ve also learned how to set my limits, and I now know myself well enough to be challenged without overdoing it.
I know, right now, I’m exactly where I’m supposed to me. No matter what happens, God has a plan.